Saturday, April 28, 2007

Still searching for peace and enlightenment.....

I have been away a while. I took a small vacation away from the children and went to visit the most amazing man in my world. I always feel so wonderful when I am with him. He looks at me in a way that makes me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. He loves me so unconditionally. He lifts my spirit and lightens my heart in ways that I have not experienced since he and I were together many years ago. It is good to be with him.

I have some good friends as well. Friends who will tell me exactly what they are thinking, feeling....they will tell me when I have my head up my butt and actually help me pull it out. I cherish those friends. Even though it has been years since I have actually had the fortune to sit down with either of them face to face over a bottle of tequila. We keep up a friendship online through email and chat programs.

My family is a few hours away from me. I miss them and try to spend time with them when I can. My mother was just here for a few days, helping with the kids while I was away, and stayed on to visit. I love her dearly, but I find our time together can be so strained. I feel like she still thinks I am twelve years old. She comes in and takes over my home, rather than just being here and enjoying the time together. I find it difficult to have her in my home, and that makes me sad.

I am fortunate to have wonderful people in my life. My life is full. I have four healthy children and I, myself, have my health. Yet.....I am still searching for that inner peace and enlightenment.....

2 comments:

deb said...

Me too, I'm still searching for that inner peace and elightenment. Good luck and hope you enjoyed your time away.

Patrick said...

In 1990, I went to Lourdes on a pilgrimage. There, I find a peace that surrounds the whole place like nowhere else in this world...

You can try travelling there =)

Since then, I've discovered that prayer is the key to inner peace. Prayer is not a meaningless chanting away, but a relationship with God and any spiritual being. Focus on love.

If you get this part, you'll experience the peace that this world cannot give =)

Some people need to be distracted by things around from the noise within in order to experience inner peace... that works for a short while coz basically, our minds are so full of monkeys that it takes King Kong (a single sound to focus on) to stop them jumping around =P

Shalom!