Monday, February 5, 2007

Epiphany

An epiphany is described as a sudden realization of something. A light bulb moment. The great big A HA!!!

My epiphany wasn't quite to "all of a sudden". It has been a more gradual progression, and I know I am not quite there yet. I know I am getting there though. I no longer immediately turn away when I look in the mirror. I am starting to see the good points. I see my smile, and I know why the man who loves me has become addicted to seeing me smile. I look at my eyes, and I know why he wants to spend long hours just looking into them. I can look at my face and see exactly why he tells me everyday that I am beautiful. I can walk past people and I no longer feel that people are looking at me and picking apart my faults, they are seeing the positives. And actually I believe that even if they aren't seeing my positives, shame on them, they should be.

The other side of this is that I am changing in the way I see other people too. I am no longer so critical of other people. I can see the positives in everyone around me too....and that feels good.

I do not feel so miserable or so cranky all of the time. I am truly so much happier. I smile at everyone I see. I feel so light! Lifting the burdens of the poor self esteem has made me walk taller, walk lighter, my heart feels so much lighter too.

I am happy. I feel proud of myself. I feel like I could accomplish almost anything.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

There are a lot of things that bring smiles to our faces in life. Even at the most trying times we need to have something that brings us joy. Love is very precious when it is true

Jla

surjit said...

A good article of utmost relevance today.Good luck.

Desiree said...

That is really and truly wonderful Iris! It's wonderful when you are able to truly see loves reflection and learn and grow from it. You've come a long way! You should be so proud of the woman you are! What's more I think that you have probably helped others because one can't help but learn from you! It's a wonderful thing all the way around!

Desiree said...

PS Funny but you posted this on the 5th and it wasn't showing up for me till today. Darned blogger!